Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Update on Brecken

The dr. office called this afternoon to let us know the ultrasound showed no changes since the last one. I was soooooo relieved to hear this! This was the last thing to tell us if there was something going on or not. We are so very thankful! We will take her to have the same panel of bloodwork next week just to make sure the levels are still normal. I finally feel like I can exhale...
Thank you, thank you, thank you for all your prayers, calls and emails. I truly know the power of prayer.
Have a great week!

Monday, August 24, 2009

Great News...

It has been a long day, and we are still awaiting some results but the blood work came back and the ONLY thing elevated was her potassium!?! Her creatnine levels were at 0.7, which is high end of normal...we'll take it. We are so grateful and blessed to have this sweet little girl and we thank each one of you for your prayers.
Sorry, I got carried away...the dr. looked at the results from last week and there were a few things high and some things low, which he couldn't put a cause to why those specific things. So, he ordered more bloodwork and an ultrasound today. She pretty much screamed through it all...dr visit, needle, ultrasound, dr. and more drs. We should hear about the ultrasound report tomorrow, so I will post an update as soon as I hear.
Thanks again, we are so relieved, my heart is oozing with happiness!

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Hebrews 13:5

Today at church, the sermon was on God's promise to never leave or forsake us. This is exactly what I needed today. (thanks Keith) I have been trying not to let myself get so worked up about tomorrow, and I really just need to remember that God will be with me ALL the time and will never leave me and he is is COMPLETE control. And I can't change anything right now, so I am going to pray for some patience and a calm spirit over the next few hours.
Tomorrow is a big day for us, but it is also a big day for a few people. John's parents anniversary is tomorrow...my cousin Aaron and his wife Gena will find out the sex of their baby...my college roomie is taking her little girl Burke to see a kidney specialist too (very wierd, I know).
Thanks again for all your uplifting and supportive comments. I know that this little girl is so blessed to have so many people looking out for her. I love you all.
I will post tomorrow, it may be late after we get home.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Not the best news...

On Monday, Brecken started running a fever and did so throughout the night. It was better on Tuesday during the am, but went up again at night. I took her to the walk in clinic just to check her out on Wed. morning. She hadn't wanted much to drink Tuesday or Wednesday. The dr. checked ears and throat and didn't think that was the cause, so because of her history, she had some blood drawn and had a pee bag put on. Since she hadn't drank much that day, it took her about 1 1/2 hours to pee. We were there 3 hours...yuck. The urine culture was positive for a UTI. So, he put her on a mild antibiotic and the blood work would be back today. I called Dr. Ortiz, the nephrologist, just to let hime know and see if anything else needed to be done. He wanted another panel of tests done, mainly to check her creatnine levels. (Creatnine levels measure how well the kidneys are functioning.) Last night, she did the same, started running a fever and did through the night. This morning we went to the hospital to have more blood drawn and were told the dr. would get a report this afternoon. Dr. Ortiz's nurse called us and said he wanted to see us on Monday. I asked if something was wrong and she said, yes, the creatnine levels were high. (heart sank to floor). I told her of course we would be there. She told me the levels were 1.0 (normal for a child is .2 to .6). So, we will meet with him on Monday and discuss the results and where to go from here. I don't know what else he will do on MOnday, i.e. ultrasound, the nurse didn't know either.
Right now, I am in shock. I am so sad for my sweet little girl, and I just want her to be healthy. Everyone keeps saying, "everything is going to be ok" and as easy as that sounds, it isn't. I am not an optimist and so my mind constantly lets the devil take over and control my thoughts. I wish it weren't true, but I have a hard time just not worrying.
I have no idea what this means...I am not sure if the uti caused the levels to go up, or the kidneys caused her to have a uti b/c something was going on with them. I pray that this is something totally unrelated to the cyst on her kidneys.
I am sorry this is coming via the internet, there are just so many people to call and so many times I can talk about this and not cry.
I appreciate all the support you have given us and I am on my knees asking you to pray a little more for Brecken. She is such a joy and everytime I see her smile and laugh my heart just swells with love. This little girl means so much to us and I can't stand her not being well.
Please say a pray for Brecken and us. Thanks in advance.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Weekend Fun

On Friday, the girls and I headed to Jacksonville to see the Eason's. Kayden was so excited and asked everyday last week if we were going to see them that day...
Lindsey's friends gave her a baby shower on Saturday, and I was so excited I was able to go and support her, but also meet her wonderful friends she always talks about. The shower was a lot of fun and she and Lillie Anna got tons of goodies. We had a wonderful time talking, as usual and the kiddos had so much fun it took them 2 hours to go to sleep! Thanks Easons for a great time.

I realized I have posted a lot of Kayden pics lately and not many Brecken. So, here are a few for you Brecken fans.
Have a good week!

Yummy food and cake at the shower

Lindsey and I

She is into EVERYTHING!

But she is just so cute when she does it, I can't help myself!

My sweet girls

Thursday, August 13, 2009

House and Janey's birthday

I now feel connected with the rest of the world...We are getting settled and it is already feeling like home. Here is the quick version of the story on the house (for anyone interested). A few months ago, an opportunity fell into our laps thanks to our good friend, Ryan, who was looking out for us. We were able to get a house, and lets just say very good circumstances. We closed this week, and it is OURS. It is older, and small, needs some work (mainly cosmetic work) but we are so grateful to be out of the apartment. I felt like the walls were closing in on me. I have taken "before" pics, but it really needs some work, so I am not posting them until we get some of it done. The outside is in need of a major overhaul...I can't wait to get it done.
Changing subjects...(did I mention this might be a novel?)
Last Saturday we celebrated Janey's birth with a cookout at my Mom and Dad's. We did this last year and it was so good once again. We just visited, played games, ate and did more visiting. It makes me feel so much better to surround myself with family and friends on this day. I had been thinking about her a lot up to last weekend. I was quite emotional at times, too. It is hard to believe that she would have been 2 years old. I have said this before, but I get a little sad when I see some kids her age and wonder what she would have been like. I know she is better off now, I know she is loved, I know there was nothing I could have done, I know that it will get better...but it doesn't ever change the fact that my daughter isn't here to celebrate her birthday. Today, the 13th, is actually the day we buried her. I thought about it a lot today. I think I remember every detail of that day. I remember Angie coming to get Kayden to go play with Lauren...riding with Garry and Janice to the funeral home for her viewing..holding my breath before I saw her in the casket...feeling so relieved when I saw how peaceful she looked...thinking they used a little too much baby powder on her skin...driving up to the cemetery and knowing that those people were all there for us...seeing John carry Janey from the car...seeing the faces of so many concerned friends/family...eating a huge meal at the church...the people that came from far away to be with us/me...saying goodbye to them...Terri taking me home to take a nap...taking meds and a really long nap...feeling some sense of peace, but still broken hearted.
So many people have very quietly told me or sent a card or email telling me they were thinking of us now. It means so much to me that others still remember her and care for her.
I just wish I could hold her one more time, and touch her hands one more time and smell her one more time. One day...
Thanks to everyone who made this day so special for us. We love each and every one of you.
Happy Birthday, baby girl.

Enough said

Papa and Brecken

Ninnie, Me and Audrey

Aunt Cindy, Mom and B

Brecken and Cissel

Kayden trying to figure it all out

A game of horse shoes

Pay and me

Augusta and KK

Colson with Brecken in her car...she loves that thing

Sunday morning at the cemetery with Janey's balloon

My favorite pic...

I couldn't resist...this was today, picture day at school
Thanks for checking in...

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Teaser post...

Sorry, this will be brief. I know there are some (3) of you who are wanting more pics and info, but I still don't have internet yet at the house, so I am at my moms. We have been super busy this past week...since last Wed. I have managed to move out of our apartment and into a house, get Kayden started at school, clean the apartment, plan and have a party in Janey's honor and unpack most of our stuff. I am exhausted just typing all that. Anyway, the house is officially ours now (longer post on that later) and it is starting to feel like home more and more. Janey's party went great. We had an evening with family and friends to remember her and just fellowship (longer post on that later, too).
So, here is a story and picture to hold you over...
Sunday I was unpacking and came across a sleeping mask. I gave it to Kayden to play with and she wore it on her head all Sunday afternoon. That night when she was getting ready for bed, she told me she wanted to wear it. After much persuading by Kayden, I gave in...what would it hurt?
I figured she would take it off within a few minutes anyway. So, she goes to sleep, and before I go to bed I check on her and about peed on myself when I saw her like below. So, I ran and got my camera...this was too good to miss.
I did take it off so she wouldnt' choke herself, though. Kayden is still not a good sleeper and like normal, she came in our room about 3 and whispered, "Mom, I can't find my eye mask." I am thinking, who cares, get back in bed! She is very persistent about it so I give it back to her and she wants me to lay with her. I tell her, "No, I am going back in my bed, there are too many things on your bed and you can't see me anyway." A few minutes later she comes and gets me, again and tells me I can come in there now (she had taken all pillows/animals off her bed and the eye mask off. So, I digressed and went back to sleep in her bed.


Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Kayden's Big Day

Today was Kayden's first day of school. I have been anticipating this day for a while, and so has she. She has always been so excited and ready. I knew I would probably fall apart when she went into her room, and cried for me not to go...well, the opposite happened. I actually did ok, and Kayden let go of my hand before we even got the classroom. She sat at her seat and didn't even blink an eye. :(
I am so proud of her and could write forever about her. I can't wait to see her today and ask how her day was.
I will post more later, but few things have come up in a hurry this week...we are moving out of our apartment and into a HOUSE! TODAY!!!!
So, I will have lots to post, it just may be a while.
Enjoy the pics!

Her nap mat...

This morning before heading to school

GG had to come by and check everything out

She found her name and seat!

Walking with Ms. Lori (her teacher) to chapel.

With friends, Helen and Emma!

Saturday, August 01, 2009

Enchiladas Recipe

A few people asked for the recipe so here it is. I got this from my college roomie, Tiffany.

-Med. tortilla shells
-4 oz. diced green chilies, drained
-1/2 c. sour cream
-2 cans, cream of chicken
-1 1/2 c. cooked chicken, cubed or shredded ( I usually use about 3-4 chicken breasts)
-1 c. shredded cheddar cheese
-1/2 c. milk

Mix chilies, sour cream and cream of chicken. Hold out about 1 c. for topping. Stir in chicken, 1/2 c. cheese. Fill shells, roll and place in 9x13 dish. Pour leftover mix and milk on top of tortillas, sprinkle with cheese. Bake at 350 for 30-35 min. or until bubbly.

It's that easy. Let me know what you think if you make them.